Backwards and Forwards - Thoughts on the last few years

I am revisiting this blog after a gap of several years. For long time, I just couldn't write. Losing Jim was more than I could handle, and it's been 4 years now.  I've done some healing, lots of changing and I'm still standing.  Re-reading what I'd written, about the hope, about trying to maintain, it still hits me like a sledge hammer.  One thing though, I'm doing what Jim wanted me to do. ... Paint.
       
I'm neck deep in watercolors, and loving it. Started working with a teacher/mentor and it's given me the boost to expand into a whole new direction. The work I'm doing is bolder, brighter, more lively than it's been for years.  Feel like I'm getting my "sassy" back, and I haven't had that since the early 90's. Artwork is fun again. 

I'm also expanding out into the world again, reconnecting with people from my past, making new friends and being "social".   I'm very thankful for the people in my life, and their acceptance and affection for me.  My glass is more than half full. 

I still feel like Jim is on the edges of my life, and sometimes it feels like he is messing with stuff; I can almost hear his laughter. Things happen, little funny things, and I ask "Really Jim?".  No lottery numbers... drat. and anyway, people are never really gone as long as they are in our hearts, right? 

Don't know how much I will be putting into this, but it feels like it's time to write again. At least there will be plenty of artwork to post.  
Taa taa for now.